It was a bike day at the gym today, trying to be nice to my body and give my knees a rest every now and then. Most days, riding the stationary bike makes me kind of grouchy, it's just not the same as a run, but when I am reading a good book, I just dive into the book and the hour on the bike flies by :).
So I am definitely reading a good book right now (Eat, Pray, Love), yes, it is so good that it had me in tears on the bike today. Oh brother, what a big dork am I?!? There are about a million and one passages that I have marked so far, but here is the one that made me cry today...
INSTRUCTIONS FOR FREEDOM
1) Life's metaphors are God's instructions.
2)You have just climbed up and above the roof. There is nothing between you and the Infinite. Now, let go.
3) The day is ending. It's time for something that was beautiful to turn into something else that is beautiful. Now, let go.
4) Your wish for resolution was a prayer. Your being here is God's response. Let go, and watch the stars come out--on the outside and on the inside.
5) With all your heart, ask for grace, and let go.
6) With all your heart, forgive him, FORGIVE YOURSELF and let him go.
7) Let your intention be freedom from useless suffering. Then, let go.
8) Watch the heat of day pass into the cool night. Let go.
9) When the karma of a relationship is done, only love remains. It's safe. Let go.
10) When the past has passed from you at last, let go. Then climb down and begin the rest of your life. With great joy.
Are you crying yet too?
Oh my goodness, if I could only capture the emotion running through me as I read this.
In the past week, I have had so much running through my head about letting go and moving on and finally beginning to feel okay with doing so and then to read this passage amidst all this thought, I just couldn't contain myself. The tears were definitely tears of joy, I know there are bound to be a few more tears of sadness, but for the first time in the past 5 months, I have begun to feel ready to move forward and to just let go and it is such a freeing feeling. Don't get me wrong, it's not as if all the sadness has magically evaporated into thin air, but I sense progress.
I have survived the past 5 months and I am beginning to really believe that I am going to be just fine.